11:52 p.m. [2003-02-18]

So this morning was boring, as the last entry stated. Right now I can't describe how I was feeling a couple of hours ago, not even close. Mostly, I guess it was emotional pain. I live in a really really lonely world...in fact today I just broke down in tears, I'm only happy I was alone. Showers help in that instance.

How lonely? Well...considering the entire university is filled with students that really only look forward to drinking and smoking...it's just not what I like to do. I can't even talk to them without raves or parties coming into the conversation. I don't know a thing about these shitty parties...I don't really care to. You call those fun? Anyway...I can't hold a real conversation with these people, and they get bored or annoyed. I don't please them.

And today I just broke. Not all the way...I still have hope for something. Something I need to live for. I just wish it would come swiftly, because I'm getting really lonely here. Even one person to share a deeper meaning...please...

OTHER OCCURENCES:

:Cookies 'n' milk sounds good
:I can't eat, therefore cancelling that last statement
:Er, sociology test Thursday
:Can't play the guitar if my life depended on it. Damn A chords.